#237

I need attention/reassurance all the time it's tiring. Like when me and my best friend dont talk for awhile, or conversations/messages seem cold, i would feel like im annoying. Ok maybe i am, but. And i would feel so happy when she talks/confides to me. And everything's ok just like that and i know that she'll always be my best friend. I exhaust myself. I crave so bad for strong stable relationships but relationships are just so hard. I know it's me now. Because how is it that everyone else can do it but me? But i still love my best friend so much and im so thankful for her. Ah this is so hard.